Whatever you do that has a personal self within it will lead you deeper into the maze. It will promise you all sorts of things, it will deliver more and more promises and will never ‘deliver’ you from your personal self. That is what haunts you but thoughts tell you lies and lead you astray as they point to some exterior cause to your confusion.
So, you must stop trusting thoughts that lead you outward since these thoughts are rooted in ignorance, in the belief that you are born in time and space and that you will reach some distant paradise.
In fact, these are false promises made by a false self to a false character.
You have the power to interrupt this stream of false beliefs. But in postponing your inquiry, you collude with ignorance and you maintain the illusion of a separate self with all its dreams and all its actors.