It is not enough to utter words of wisdom and repeat the words of the sages parrot like.
Your contemplation is most important and it is in the depth of your inner silence that the contemplation takes place and not by repeating words that you do not comprehend and live.

No matter what may be appearing on the surface, return to your inner contemplative silence and maintain your inner inquiry alive.
Thus, what you refer as your (temporary) life will not be in vain.