There is a desire that is blessed, divine. It originated from the source.
Not from you, but through you and yo you. 
It is pointing you to the real you and inviting you to look deeply into the fallacy of multiple realities, multiple selves. 
It is inviting you to your own recognition and the death of the illusory self. 
Blessed is this desire for it originates out of divine live and is the key to the kingdom of god.