Hi dear Magdi,
I would like to ask your input please. These days there is a mix between relaxation and confidence and seeing the magic unfolding, and then in the same day, something different happens that the mind classifies as “not nice” and for a little moment there is a sensation of discomfort (identification, right?). So both seem to happen at the same time and while I write, I see those belong to the changing realm. They come and they go, even though magic is magic!
Since I wrote to you last time I have this question mark inside. I know something has changed in the way I perceive everything. More and more I hear myself speaking from a place of intuitive response that works beautifully for some work I do with chronic pain patients, and also for yoga classes. Then I try to reproduce it, and it doesn´t work. It happens when less expected, and when it wants to happen.
I guess “I” would like for IT to happen always, this magic, this intuitive response. I mean it happens more than ever before, (it used to be ramdom events). Now it happens at least once every day or more, but….. Can that become absolutely part of the entire day, of the entire life?
Why do I have this sense of somenthing not being completed, finished?
Please let me know what do see here, thanks a lot for your help.
You say ‘there is a mix between relaxation …and something different that the mind classifies as not nice…’
You say that ‘both happen at the same time … and that they belong to the changing realm…’
True relaxation is not of the mind and does not belong to the realm of experiences. True relaxation is a quality of the divine, a quality of consciousness that has no task to accomplish, no problems to solve, nothing to become.
The mind is not present in true relaxation. Thought (the mind) appears and, although it was absent during relaxation (after all true relaxation is not in time), it claims that it was present and turns the relaxation into a personal experience, into a state.
In fact, true relaxation is a non-state, not in time, not of the mind. The mind does not produce true relaxation.
Thus it cannot be said that it is in the changing realm. Thought is the changing realm; the realm we refer to as mind, comprised of mentations: perceptions, sensations, mental images.
As per speaking from intuitive response, again, such speech does not come from the mind. The source of intuition is beyond the mind and utilizes the mind to express itself. Intuitive speech is consciousness that is expressing itself, ‘directly’, bypassing the mind and yet using the mind (language and thought) as a tool to serve it in expressing itself.
Once again, in intuition, the mind is absent and claims that it is the doer.
Thus the mind says: I am the one who expressed myself with intuition and I can (or cannot) do it again.
The mind attempts to steal the show that does not belong to it. The claim that you try to reproduce it is a claim that assumes that you are the mind.
You are not the mind.
As you recognize your true nature as the universal eternal Self, the habitual tendency to revert to the mind will diminish and like a flame that is running out of fuel, the separate self tendency naturally extinguishes, revealing the eternal and causeless peace and happiness, that does not come and go.
Until then, the sense of something not being completely finished will continue to arise. This sense is honest and keeps you in the contemplation leading you home.
This revelation is not a time event, not something the mind does.