The conditions that arise to you are like the weather. None of it is personal.
What seems personal is meant as an invitation to look deeply into the reality of the person you believe and feel you are. It is not meant to punish you.
There is no one to punish and no punisher. Punishment is made out of your thoughts and does not exist outside of your thoughts and feelings.
Contemplate the reality of your experience and surrender your body mind.
Freshly. Every moment.