Meditation is not for the meditator. It is about the meditator. 
What is it that meditates?
Meditation is through you and not by you. It comes to you like a visitor sent by the queen.

The I-thought appears.
To what does it appear?
To That which does not appear.

Simultaneously, the me-feeling appears as unhappiness.
To what does it appear?
To That which does not appear.

Noticing awareness 
Awareness noticing itself
Awareness aware of awareness
Self-awareness is built-in within awareness

I is awareness
Self-knowing.
I Am and I know I Am

‘Noticing awareness’ is a gift from God
In other words, the built-in capacity for awareness to self-notice is a freebee from the puppeteer

Self awareness is the trump Card… (Not that Trump!!) 😉